Bir sabah uyand\u0131 adam; kap\u0131y\u0131 sert\u00e7e vuran, sert bak\u0131\u015fl\u0131 adamlar koluna girip apar topar g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler.\u00a0 Adam sessiz ve \u00e7aresiz onlarla gitti.\u00a0 So\u011fuk bir odaya koydular, demir bir kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00fczerine kilitlediler.\u00a0 Adam daha o dakika \u00f6zlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0 O\u011flunu, sevdi\u011fi kad\u0131n\u0131, evini\u2026<\/p>\n

Kad\u0131n gidenlerin ard\u0131ndan bakakald\u0131.\u00a0 Ne bir \u015fey yapabildi ne de bir s\u00f6z edebildi.\u00a0 G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 sicim gibi akt\u0131.\u00a0 \u00c7i\u00e7ek desenli bir t\u00fclbent vard\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda, onunla sildi g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131.\u00a0 Kad\u0131n daha o dakikada ba\u015flad\u0131 \u00f6zlemeye.\u00a0 Erini, evinin dire\u011fini\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00c7ocuk uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda annesini yerde sessiz sessiz a\u011flarken buldu.\u00a0 Anlam veremedi, gitti oturdu yan\u0131na, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dizlerine koydu.\u00a0 D\u00fcnyan\u0131n en g\u00fczel kokusunu, anne kokusunu soludu derin derin.\u00a0 Annesi \u201cbaban\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler\u201d dedi sadece.\u00a0 Titreyen sesinden, nemli g\u00f6zlerinden anlad\u0131 ki babas\u0131n\u0131n gitti\u011fi yer pek iyi bir yer de\u011fildi.\u00a0 Ve \u00e7ocuk daha o dakika ba\u015flad\u0131 \u00f6zlemeye; babas\u0131n\u0131, kahraman\u0131n\u0131, koruyucusunu\u2026<\/p>\n

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Bu onun \u00f6zlemle ilk tan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 oldu.\u00a0 Sonra hayat\u0131 boyunca nice \u00f6zlemler ya\u015fad\u0131, t\u0131pk\u0131 di\u011fer \u00e7ocuklar gibi.\u00a0 Okula giderken tatil g\u00fcnlerini, tatil d\u00f6neminde okulu \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 Erken kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda uyumay\u0131, bitmek bilmeyen s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 g\u00fcnlerde erken kalkmay\u0131 \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 Yaz\u0131n kar\u0131 \u00f6zledi, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131.\u00a0 Ya\u011fmurlu g\u00fcnlerde g\u00fcne\u015fi ve denizi, g\u00fcne\u015f kavururken ya\u011fmuru \u00f6zledi.<\/p>\n

Ve b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc vakit \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu \u00f6zledi.<\/p>\n

Bu \u00f6zlem ona bundan \u00f6nceki \u00f6zlemlerinin ne kadar yavan oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011fretti.\u00a0 G\u00fcne\u015fi \u00f6zledi\u011finde yaz gelirdi, okulu \u00f6zledi\u011finde g\u00fcz.\u00a0 Oysa \u00e7ocukluk bir daha asla geri gelmemek \u00fczere gitmi\u015fti.\u00a0 Ger\u00e7ek \u00f6zlemle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 Art\u0131k \u00e7ocuk da de\u011fildi, gen\u00e7 bir adamd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00d6zlemin geri getiremedi\u011fi \u015feyler oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendi.\u00a0 Zaman gibi, g\u00fcven gibi, dostluk gibi, sevgi gibi, hayat gibi.\u00a0 Bunlar gitti\u011finde ne kadar \u00f6zlerse \u00f6zlesin geri gelmeyeceklerini, bu \u00f6zlemlerin hayat\u0131n\u0131n sonuna dek devam edece\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendi.<\/p>\n

A\u015fk\u0131 da \u00f6zlemle tan\u0131d\u0131 gen\u00e7 adam.\u00a0 Uzun g\u00fcnler, haftalar, aylar \u00f6zlemle ge\u00e7ti.\u00a0 Sevmek, \u00f6zlemek ve bunlarla birlikte ya\u015famak\u2026\u00a0 \u00d6zlemenin bamba\u015fka bir boyutuydu bu.\u00a0 Hi\u00e7bir \u00f6zlemi onu bu denli yormam\u0131\u015f, hi\u00e7bir \u00f6zlemi y\u00fcre\u011fine sapl\u0131 bir han\u00e7er gibi durup durup s\u0131zlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti, yollar ge\u00e7ti, \u00f6zlemin bin bir h\u00e2lini tan\u0131d\u0131 adam. \u00a0Kendisine benzeyen insanlar\u0131, ayn\u0131 dili konu\u015fan a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131, ayn\u0131 \u015feylere g\u00fclen y\u00fczleri \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her an, s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ana kuca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 So\u011fuktan tir tir titredi\u011fi, soban\u0131n kenar\u0131na oturup \u0131s\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 Hesaps\u0131z kitaps\u0131z dostluklar\u0131, yalandan muaf arkada\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131 \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z yap\u0131lan iyilikleri, birlikte b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fclen simitleri \u00f6zledi.\u00a0 Huzur dolu g\u00fcnleri, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn tamamen y\u0131ld\u0131zlarla kapl\u0131 oldu\u011fu geceleri \u00f6zledi\u2026<\/p>\n

Sevdi\u011fi ama bir daha asla kavu\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131 ne varsa \u00f6zledi.
\nSevmedi\u011fi bir \u015feyi \u00f6zlemez zaten insan.
\nSevmedi\u011fi ama insan\u0131n al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131k sebebiyle duydu\u011fu \u00f6zlemleriyse zamana yenilmeye mahk\u00fbmdurlar\u2026<\/p>\n

Umut, sevgi, korku ve \u00f6zlem\u2026<\/p>\n

Bizi biz yapan her \u015feyin \u00f6zeti i\u015fte bu d\u00f6rt kelime.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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